Here comes goodbye................

This post is a little ( well very much ) too late. But yes, just so you know
 ( if anyone were to read this ), I stopped working. * Scream * * Cough cough *

No, I wasn't fired. I just stopped. I officially stopped working at Tadika Bintang Seri Cerah on the 24th of May. ( It's been a week... )

Why ? Are you tired of teaching ? Are you looking for another job ? You hate your boss ?

* Imaginary questions being thrown *

Chill. I'll give you a simple answer.

I NEED A BREAK.

Don't get me wrong, the 5 months that I have spent working has been very fulfilling and
" heartwarming". It was a great encounter, a great experience and a great excitement as well.
I love working with children, I enjoy their presence, and oh my, I'm already missing them now.... T.T

It's just another new chapter slowly evolving in my life. And please, this is not even a matter of endurance or perseverance that we're talking about. It's about knowing when to stop, and when to begin again.    
Here's the bomb : Come September, and I will be a uni student.

* Gasp *
I just thought that it would be a good time for me to recharge before I enter a new phase in my life. It is also a good time for me to reflect on what I really wanted , as an individual.

Working with children did make me realise that education is extremely important. Even at a young age. I actually enjoy listening to them reading even though they may be reading the same text over and OVER AGAIN everyday. It really felt nice to see that they are eager and interested to read. And they are HAPPY when they read.

What I dislike is the fact that at this young age, they are trained to be Mozart, Steve Jobs , Bill Gates
( I dunno, to be a child prodigy or genius or what so ever ) .   They have to attend so many extra classes after school in a week which is so burdensome for them . I know some of the parents mean well, but seriously, parents, can you be honest about this issue ? Is your child really interested in those classes ? Or is it because of your plain " kiasu" attitude ???

I also learnt to be more caring and sensitive to the children's feelings. Some of them are naughty because they are attention seeking children. Some  have mood swings. NOTE. UNPREDICTABLE MOOD SWINGS. ( And no, it's not a female we're talking about, boys have them too!!!! ) A moment they will be happily running about, a moment later they'll sit down on a corner and ignore what you're saying.

And you gotta go down to their level and ask them what happened. Even if you don't understand what they're saying, you just gotta pretend that you understand. They just want to be heard.

Okay. Enough with the self reflection thingy.

I need to say a proper goodbye.

Goodbye my dear students and fellow colleagues,
The time spent with you all is just unforgettable,
The memories we shared I'll savor,
This journey we had is truly a treasure.

Goodbye my dear students of 4 Red and 5 Red,
Perhaps you scared me a little when your tears rolled all over,
Demonstrated impressive running and playing skills whenever,
But truly indeed you all won me over.

Goodbye to my dear colleagues and fellow comrades,
Thank you all for your nuggets of wisdom,
Jokes that never fail to make me crack in laughter,
Your support and care I'll remember forever !!

I love you TBSC. So long, farewell. =) Saranghaeyo <3 Take care and God bless !! =)

  Thank you for welcoming me to this beautiful family. =)

Good Doctor

Once upon a time there was ER, Healing Hands. Surgeon Bong Dal Hee and now we have the heart warming yet equally nerve wracking Good Doctor.

I can't recall the number of medical dramas that I have watched these past years. ( I know, I sound so old here ....)  I used to get excited at the sight of white coats, stethoscopes ...No. not blood.

After My Love from the Stars , I had enough of  the fluffy , overdosed romantic K- dramas. I wanted to watch something more serious, educational yet entertaining. So, in the midst of googling and exploring , I decided to watch this drama. And once I started , it's almost impossible to stop. In fact, I got so annoyed when the drama failed to load at a speedy rate when I was watching it.

Good Doctor is about an autistic( Savant's syndrome ) , Park Si On who finds acceptance, love, friendship and forgiveness while learning his way to become a doctor. I cannot remember the times I cried when I watched this drama. The way Si On struggles with his own identity , and at the same time he tries to reach out to others is enough to make me cry all day.

And I can tell you honestly why this drama hits me so hard. Si On reminds me of my own sister. My sister is DIFFERENT, just as how Si On described himself.  I will be lying if I say I get fed up by her antic at times. I'm more fed up at the fact that I have to view her as a responsibility at a young age, rather than just a sister I have to love, and take care of.  Watching this drama awakens me to the fact that my sister didn't choose to be born this way. And like Si On, she deserves to be loved and to love others too.

I know I am not a good sister, but I'm working hard on becoming one. I really am. And thanks, Si On. =)

And of course we come to the most important aspect of a drama , its plot and characters. This medical dramas basically focuses on pediatrics , and it's refreshing in a sense that we get to learn different sickness that affect children. This drama also points out that no matter how strong we are as human beings, we all have our vulnerable sides.

Of course, I must give credit to the actors and actresses for playing their roles so well. Especially Joo Won who played Si On perfectly. He made the character so believable that I sometimes forget that it's just a drama.

But... I got a confession.... My ideal type is more of Kim Do Han played by Joo Sang Wook. The cool, level headed doctor, who used to give Si On a hard time in the beginning. Oh dear, some things never changed I guess.

So, if you're bored of some the typical K- dramas, and long for something refreshing yet touching. Good Doctor may be something you're looking for. =)

Sports Day in TBSC and preparation for farewell

Again, sorry for taking a long hiatus from blogging. Don't get me wrong, I really love writing and recording my thoughts in the form of words. But ya know, when there are so many things happening, it takes time to recollect them precisely. 

So here it goes. 

For these past two months, we have been practicing in school, and for the past two weeks, the intensive training started. The children had to practice their events, the teachers need to plan the games and so forth. And, I was even asked to command the children. Commanding the children in school is an easy feat, but today in the field was just WOAH. You have to watch the timing, listen to the marching song, and endure the STARES of the parents at you. 

( Well, they didn't act stare la, more like saying  don't block my view , and when can I see my children expression... )

Right from the beginning, I was asked to search for volunteers to help out for today. Of all time, the Girl Guides went for camping and no uniform bodies were available. Just when I was about to give up, my best friend/ deskmate, partner in crime ( nyehehehe ) , Juwie agreed to help. Not only that, she managed to tag my former MC partner who also happens to be her former MC partner , Bong to help too. Ah, talk about influence. And today, a total of 5 came, where 3 of my seniors came to help too.  Thank you all !!!! =) God really answered my prayers!!!

And then, it started. Careless me. Right in the morning, we found out that we lost a cap. Poor Jayden just discharged from the hospital , and he was eager for Sports !!! I really felt so bad. And, it was even worse when Teacher Peck Yen "looked" at me. But of course, the show must go on, and Jayden was made a temporary Yellow House member, because so happen one of the Yellow House member was absent. I don't know whether I should be happy or sad at that time, but it gives me a sense of relief that he can participate the march pass with a cap.  Must. Find. The Cap. 

( It's indirectly my fault because most of the time the caps were with me ) 

By then, my mood was slightly affected. I had to command the march pass, and suddenly a boy fainted right in front. There was a little " hoo ha" scene and somehow he regained his consciousness after a few doctors attended to him. Yup, loads of my students parents are doctors. But ya know, not all doctor's children behave well. ( Just some food for thought )

The pom pom dance was next. I was feeling so overwhelmed by the previous events, and nearly lost my sense of rhythm. But at that moment, I took a deep breath. 

*The day is still long, and the kids need me. If I allow the previous events to affect me, I am being selfish. And I want the day to end with a beautiful note. I will not let a single careless mistake of mine ruin my day !!*

 So after that, I danced my heart out !!!! I just wanna release my tension and just get going !! 

After sending them back, we have to prepare them for their events. The obstacle race was first, so we gotta prepare the equipment and all. And then, I get to see the competitive sides of parents. It was as though they are competing, and not their children lol. Well, it's just a game la, take it easy parents. Let them enjoy while they can now, because once they reach my age... hmmmmmmm

I was anticipating the individual race lol. I wanna know the runners. I wanna know how they run. I can't help but look at the 4 years old race first. I spent a month with them. and they will always have a soft spot in my heart. Especially Yi Ram, the Korean boy. To be honest, he doesn't look like those Korean actors we see on TV, but he's definitely lovable. 

I admit, I am a little Korean biased. But come to think about it, for a kid who doesn't speak English , who has to adapt to a new country, new teachers, new friends. It's tough. He can't express his emotions, thoughts that well. And he sometimes mumbles something in Korean when he is frustrated. I try to understand, and most of the time, I'll just say " araso " ( I understand ), and pad on his shoulder. =) 

Awwwwwwwwww.........

                                              He reminds me of Kang Gary in Running Man. =D

It's so hard to catch the winners at the finishing line. I was in charge to catch no. 1 at first, but then I swapped with one of the teachers. Gosh, we needed a video to rewind and review. It's Kids Olympics at TBSC here LOL !!! 

By then, the event was coming to end. We had our closing ceremony. And then, suddenly my boos told me we 're going to have lunch together when my father was already there. I called my father, and explained. I think I have the best parents on Earth. They are so understanding and sporting. 

( Not all the times, but when they do, it's THE time  ) 

Lunch was good, and I managed to eat a good ice kacang after so long. And it was a great time with the teachers as well. Gonna miss them loads. I feel as if they are my mothers in school. Well, they're not perfect, neither am I ;)  I love them all, and they will always be in my prayers =) 

I have learnt loads from them. Working in TBSC definitely taught me many things. I thank God for everything. 

Next month is my final month in TBSC, and I hope I'll make the best out of it. 

Here are some photos of my working experience. 

Freedom and Gratitude

Well at least for the next 6 months, I am exam free ! Yesterday I just sat for my Chem paper ( repeat for Sem 3--> Organic Chemistry ) and today I got the results for the overall grades before I add the sem 3 results. ( Yeah, I know it's kinda confusing here..... )

So how's the results ? My pointer is 2.75. My best result so far. And this means, I passed all my subjects too !!! Praise God !!!  ( Which means, even if I fail my repeat papers, I still pass hehehe )

And to the add the icing on the cake, I received a letter from MPM saying that I got a Band 5 for my MUET test ! Again, all glory goes back to Him. =)

I really am thankful and grateful for God's amazing grace, favor and mercy towards me. In the beginning I thought I couldn't make it, and I was practically so depressed with my results and myself. But He blessed me with so many angels in my life, that being my parents, family, friends and teachers.

I would like to thank :

My mother, who practically worry over me and prayed for God's help and open doors for my future.
I am everything I am  now because of your love and prayers.

My father, who is the best driver in town, who drives me to my tuition, gatherings , school and so on.
My father is a man of few words, but he proves to us that love is more than words.

( If I ever get married, I will make sure that my future husband has the patience and driving skills of my dad. Period. )

My sister, who showers me with her love and affection. Joanne, you are really God sent. I love you.

My best friends, sisters . Jocelyn, Xiao Mei, Er Jie, Juwie, Yan Teng, Jia Wearn and the list goes on. Thank you so much for your support and prayers. You guys know how I struggled, and you all were there for me. Thank you so much gals.

To all my teachers in SPI, Aunty Yoke Eng, Aunty Keng King, Uncle Kwan, thanks so much for your encouragement and guidance.

Right now, I'm really overwhelmed. My prayer now is that God will open doors for me to a good local university with the right course.
I really hope I can get into Bimbingan dan Kaunselling dalam Pendidikan in UPM !!

I hope they have a strong CF group there. Also I look forward to learn Korean as a foreign language there too !!! Annyeong ~ =D

STPM brought the best and worse out of me.
For the first time in my life, I doubt myself when it comes to studies matters.
For the first time in my life, I cried my heart out when I am revising my studies.
For the first time in my life, I start to think ( REALLY THINK ) about my own strength and weaknesses.

For the first time in my life, I learn to accept myself as I am. It's okay to be imperfect. It's okay to just be average.
For the first time in my life, I learn to really WORK HARD to obtain what I desire. What you sow, you also reap.
And for the first time in my life, I learn to let my past go, to accept failures and to MOVE ON.

Oh I can tell you so many stories and write a thousand over words over this matter, but  let me conslude by saying this :
I have changed. Seriously I have changed.
I am so different from the person I used to be back then when I was sitting for my SPM. I can't say it's for the better LOL, ( I hope so ), but I have changed. Definitely.

It's a new journey now. A new journey to a better future and a step closer to God's destiny for me. =)

Thank You God for making all this possible. =)

20th b'dayyyyyyyyyyyyy

Haha, I really see it coming. When a group of friends asked me to have a gathering just a day before my b'day, what do you expect ???????

Well, nevertheless, I am very touched by their efforts and love. We had dinner at A & W. And yeah, they " surprised " me there. When I was looking at Kim Soo Hyun hahahahahaha.

Two candles. Thank goodness. * Phew * 

I love the cake. Orange cheese + chocolate.

This moment is so beautifully captured. Love it <3 

Me and the girls. Jocelyn, Sze Hong, Sim Yin and Jing Han.

Ahhhhhh, to be surrounded by friends 

who have the brains and beauty is simply................

AMAZING !!

I have known her since year 1.

Oh dear, same school since 7 till 17. 

My bestie since I dunno when. 

My sis in Christ <3

With the pretty future doctor, Sim Yin. 

Her  mum and my mum were schoolmates too.

With my " xian qi liang mu "

 my dearest and most gentle bestie,

Sze Hong ~~~ 

Thank you so much girls for making my day so memorable! I love you all ! God bless <3 

Moon Embracing the Sun /Characteristics of a good drama

Again, another drama attack ! Can you imagine me watching two dramas that have Kim Soo Hyun as their main actor ??? AT THE SAME TIME ????

But this is a historical melodrama, which makes me CRY more than SMILE more.

This is a sweet drama though, and I must say that 40% of this drama success came from the child actors.

 Lee Hwon, later played by Kim Soo Hyun. 

 Young Lee Hwon with the young Yeon Woo. 

If this is not sweet, than I don't know what is " sweet" then. 

They were around 13, 17 when they were filming  this drama  , 

and I was... I was studying, and probably dreaming of other things, I dunno....

I think what made this drama stood out is the emphasis on love that blossomed at such a young age.

And even though so many challenges came by, true love managed to find its way back. 

I shall based the characteristic of this drama 

on what it means to be a good drama.

1. A good plot which focuses on its main actors. 

                                             

                         2. Friends ? Frenemies ? Brothers ? Rivals ?

                             A balanced explore of relationships.

                                     

                                                       

                                 3. BRO-MANCE. It worked pretty well in this drama.

                                                                   No doubt.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww <3

The taking off the clothes scene. 

Hwang Sun Pfttttt LOL 

4. Comedy in the midst of tears. 

5. Kim Soo Hyun's tears. Seriously. When I see him cry too, I cry. 

I REALLY CRIED.

All in all, this is a good drama =) 

My love from the stars/ Dream husband list

Lately, I have been very productive in front of the Internet. I count myself as a super die hard fan of this drama- My love from the Stars.

I thought I'll never watch a Korean drama after A Gentleman's Dignity. But noooooooooooo!!! This drama just made my busy, tiring working life more interesting.

It has been a while since I had a crush on a Korean actor. Ladies and gentleman, may I introduce to you

                                            <3 KIM SOO HYUN <3

And ya know what is his character in this drama ? An alien. * Gasp * 

A good- looking, genius and superman-like alien. 

While I was watching this drama, I was so , so mesmerized by his acting skills. ( and his looks )

I thought to myself,

" Why didn't I noticed you earlier?" 

I practically love characters that are cool on the exterior, but  are warm on the inside. 

If an alien doesn't behave this way, I don't know what to do.... Seriously. And somehow Kim Soo Hyun just portrayed this alien so perfectly. Awwwwwwwww.

  Characteristics of my dream husband .* swoons *

1. Read. 

Pls, if ya don't read, ya out of my list. Period.

2.  Looks at me with THAT gaze. Aigooooo...

                                             
                          3. Hang out with me. In the snow. =)

                                             

4. Cycles like a pro. 

I'm just waiting to sit behind him. <3

5. Be my personal tutor. 

Seriously, if I have a teacher like this, do you think I'll be blogging on my b'day ?? Ha ! 

6.  Flexible. Haha. 

Easy to be bullied ? ;) Nyahahahaha 

7. Peels oranges for me, 

and yeah, let me lie down on his lap. LOL ....

Aigoo yeaaaaaaaaaaaa

8. Eats whatever I cook. 

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YEA ~

9. A guy who reads together with me before we sleep. 

My dreaming mode is so turned ON now ~ 

10. Need I say more ? 

Tenderness  beneath those cool eyes. 

Bear with me dear readers, I think I'll be better after watching the last episode! Aha !

No ? Yeah, I think so too. This will be one of my fav K- drama of all time ! =)